Celebrating collard greens, kittens, and unexpected new growth

gratitude cuts fear, lighting the way forward

Hello beloved readers

beloved api, in a sea of cat hair, showing off his tongue

Let’s check in…

I would say that I am hanging in there, kitten style.

I have spent the past year in a space of deep grief and pain. There were many days when I would wake up and drag myself out of bed, putting one foot in front of the other, trusting that I would eventually feel better.

I am relieved to say that things have been feeling better recently! It’s been easier to get out of bed. Before, I was taking tentative steps, not sure where I was headed, but now I’m speed walking into the sunrise.

I feel some kinship with this wrinkled ginger, like yah me too. I may be dehydrated, but we have some NEW GROWTH to celebrate

Healers get depressed, too.

Healers feel hopeless, experience trauma, and have bad days.

It feels important to say.

I used to put people on pedestals. I would see them, these people I idolized, posting deep thoughts on Instagram, leading workshops, and I would imagine their perfect lives and feel so jealous.

Now, I am leading the workshops. My medicine and inner wisdom are real, and so are my pain and grief. I hold both, and I have been released of the delusion that gaining skill will save me from the pain of life.

I have more tools now then I used to, and things are easier in different ways, but ultimately life is unpredictable and no matter how enlightened we are, we all still feel emotional pain.

Or we don’t, and we lead emotionally empty lives, which has its own form of pain.

I don’t think feeling hopeless, sad, or having what feels like uncontainable grief disqualifies us as healers. I think the opposite. Feeling painful emotions can initiate us into our healing powers.

There are other ways to learn too, like through pleasure. So many teachers in this life time.

I used to say I wanted to learn from pleasure, not pain, but now I realize the two are compliments, not competition, and often co-create lesson plans together.

Collard greens are one of my favorite teachers.

praise be to the sacred southern blend of collar, mustard, and turnip greens. don’t look at my sink lol.

Speaking of teachers…

I am surrounded by healers and teachers with many gifts and I would like to make a practice of uplifting them in this newsletter!

Today I want to pour some flowers on Terry Banks, a very wise financial coach who I have had the pleasure of learning from!

As you can see from the above photo, Terry has great energy.

Terry is a non-judgmental and incredibly wise, AND offers free 30-minute consultations! You can sign up here

In a recent presentation I attended, Terry was able to help me identify and shift some of my thought patterns around money that lead to me impulsively spending.

Terry said… “I don’t believe in YOLO, because if something is good I probably want to plan to do it more than once.”

So powerful!!! If you end up speaking with Terry, please let her know that you were referred by Opulence Abundance.

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Below the cut, I am sharing more about my feelings of depression, and some lessons learned!

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