Happy Taurus Season!

Opulence Abundance

May 12, 2022

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HELLO BELOVED WEIRDOS

Happy Taurus Season !

Taurus season is my favorite time of the year!! Maybe because I am a Taurus?

Today ( May 12) is my actual birthday! I think its sweet to be writing this newsletter on this day. I am turning 31, a pivotal time that has come to represent a new beginning for me. I have spent the past two years meditating on the type of person I want to be and the life I want to live in an abstract values based way, and also in a tangible literal way.

If you would like to celebrate my birthday with me the best gift would be for you to read this newsletter and send me an affirmation or contributing to my ko-fi! I put so much energy into this creation, and it brings me joy to know that you are reading an hearing what you think!!!

The transition into 30 is special, because it prompts reflection and it is a moment where we can choose new ways to be. We can always choose this, but there is special momentum during this time!

While I have integrated many new habits and ways of being, the ones I celebrate the most are the many tangible habits that are guided by my intention of self love.

Embodying self love has been a journey for me. I still remember the fear I felt at 16 when I realized how deep my subconscious desire for self sabotage was and how powerless I felt as I watched myself tank situations an opportunities. In hindsight, I can see that I had internalized messages about my self worth alongside maladaptive survival and safety strategies.

It has been a long road of self reflection, deprogramming, patience and compassion, but I’m finally here!!! I finally floss every day twice a day ( I know, very impressive).

When I reflect on my younger self I feel pride and gratitude for the genuine effort I put in to make this life a reality. So much failure. I see how each attempt sharpened my integrity, and deepened my commitment. How each time I learned an important lesson and came one baby step closer to living a life of self love.

I still fail sometimes. The system is not perfect, I am not perfect, and I am continuing to learn discipline, devotion, and commitment in new and more perfect ways. But there is a stable momentum that has been a built, a very special inertia, seeds of karma that have been sown and will bear fruit in lifetimes to come.

At the core of this growth is the idea/value of responsibility and agency. For so long I was at the mercy of the world, in survival mode, trying to make the hurt stop. I’m sure many reading this can relate, I think we have all been there and may be there again in moments where life really knocks us on our ass. Ultimately though, I am grateful to be grounded in my power in a way I can return to again and again. A special affirmation that helps me find my power:

I am the guardian of my body, mind , soul and spirit. I keep me safe. I make good choices that keep me safe.

side note: this morning, the morning of my 31st anniversary of emerging from my mother’s sacred matriz, doorway to the mysterious other side, I was sleeping on a futon in my brother’s basement and at 4am I rolled over on my side, triggering the futon’s tipping function, causing me to roll out of bed (onto a floor padded with sham cushions). at 31 I was literally divinely awakened, knocked on my ass, humbled.

If this is interesting to you, you can read more on my kofi! I am glad I explored making videos, I’m leaning into blog posts and I am hoping to make blog posts for contributors weekly! More on that soon.

You can read this season’s post on how to shift patterns if you make a one time donation for as low as $3!

A post- acupuncture selfie in the iconic radical healing bathroom

I am really grateful for my taurus placements. Taurus is an earth sign. Symbolized by the bull, Taurus energy is often described as stubborn, forceful, creative, and sensual. I have also heard taurus energy described as flowers, as lava. it all resonates with me.

Celebrate this energy by…

Eat some good cake. Not food lion/ Vons / cheap grocery store cake. If you can try to get a slice of some fresh market/whole foods/ 13 hour bakery cake. You know the cake I’m talking about it.
take a nap. Pay attention to how you feel and when you feel even a hint of tiredness cancel plans/abandon responsibilities and go to bed.
Lay in a clover patch in the sun. extra points if you are able to do this in the company of an animal or a friend. look at the clouds, feel the sun on your face, admire the perfect complex structure of a clover flower.
Drink some red clover blossom tea! Great for asthma and women’s health. Supports our blood.
If you can get your hands on some southern magnolia petals, pickle them! (the black forager just made a video on how). Eat.
Devote a day to cooking something slowly and thoroughly. like pasta from scratch, or chilaquiles ( this is a nod to a very special taurus transcestor, LL. Love u LL)
do a body scan meditation (tara brach has good free ones if you need a facilitator!)
take a nice low n slow walk. feel your feet feeling the bottom of your shoes feeling the ground.

my beautiful family sitting on the steps of my brother’s home in the suburbs of Atlanta. This home and my brother + his wife received + supported me during my move.

This relationship is new. this is my first time spending my actual birthday with my family in 10 years (not an accident on my end). There is something beautiful about stepping out of relationship, having boundaries, and being able to reconnect and build with love, respect, and safety.

Shortly after taking this photo I learned that my brother an his wife are moving away from this house to another one in a different part of Atlanta. Everything dies, and I know our love will continue to grow.

Catching Fire- Aries Szn 2021 Playlist

Every Fire wants to be Fed- Aries Szn 2022 Playlist

Three deep breaths- Taurus Szn 2021 Playlist

I’ll cry if I want to- Taurus Szn 2022 Playlist

In aries season my playlist came together very slowly, and in the absence of a fully formed playlist I went back in time and listened to the playlist I made for aries season in 2021! I love these moments where my current self can rest in the infrastructure provided by my past self (is this what retirement is?)

I didn’t really get an aries season newsletter out . I spent aries season attempting to complete moving related tasks (so many visits to the DMV) and working! It happened in a flash, in true aries season fashion. I’m glad that I can be gentle and flexible and not force myself to send out these newsletters when its not in flow.

I get a lot of questions about my move and how its going. I conciously chose not to live alone so that I could make friends and that was a strategic wise choice that worked out for me! My roommate is so generous with their friendship and looping me in. My weekends are filled with unpredictable adventures. My days are spent working remotely, going to the local ymca, working on puzzles, sitting in my beautiful yard, walking along the river, and petting my precious cat baby. its a beautiful life!

Earlier in my move everything felt uncomfortable. I was having beautiful experiences (like taking a sunset walk along the river) and my room didn’t really feel like my room yet and I had trouble sleeping well. all the food I eat, even the food I make, tastes slightly different.

its just a part of it. Sometimes I feel very lonely, and I miss being in community, and I know that those feelings are a testament to the real and powerful connections I felt in LA. The awareness helps.

More recently, things are more comfortable. I’ve adjusted to my house and my room (they feel like mine!) and my precious cat has also adjusted. I still feel like a city mouse in the country, but everyday I feel a little more adjusted. I have bumped into old friends and am in a process of reckoning/integrating with the life and relationships I left when I moved to LA.

It is a full circle moment, and also the beginning of a new cycle.

THANK U FOR READING

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