Happy Aquarius Season!

Opulence Abundance

Feb 08, 2022

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HELLO BELOVED WEIRDOS

I missed you

Hello beautiful humans. I have been thinking about writing this email for a long time.

I thought about it as I drove across the country and filled my eyes with landscapes beyond my imagination. I thought about it as I moved back in with my parents and my memory of my life in LA became a distant glittering memory. I thought about it as Chani Nicholas horoscopes filled my inbox and I watched the moon disappear and reform again and again and again.

As I write this email the moon is reforming again, emerging from a new moon in Aquarius and building towards a full moon in Leo on February 16th, 2022.

Celebrate this Aquarian energy by…

challenging yourself to make a meal with all the random foods in your pantry/ fridge and livestream the whole thing
Tell a friend a story with lots of tangential information and with no purpose or point. Allow yourself to be circular and nonsensical, bonus points if you pause to respond to texts and resume with the same intensity
Make an offering to Saturn energy and embrace your inner daddy (only you know how to truly do this/what to offer Saturn, the planet of limits and boundaries)
Sing to your plants + friends
Attend a zoom event ( bonus points if it is a 24 hour rave)
lay on your bed with your neck hanging off the bed and view your world upside down
If you are in a warm climate, host a covid safe potluck in the park and bask in community abundance in the form of random snacks
eating pungent foods (garlic,onions, mustard greens, arugula, fermented things!)
Going on invigorating walks in the sun

Listen to the Aquarius season playlist

and because these were some of the best playlists I have ever created….

Listen to the Capricorn Season Playlist

Listen to the Sagittarius Season Playlist

Listen to the Scorpio Season Playlist

the full moon in Taurus; photo taken by me during Scorpio Season in a Taco Bell Parking Lot in South Carolina

As we near the full moon in Leo, I feel reflective.

On full moons I often look back to what was happening for me during the new moon of the same sign, in this case the new moon was in Leo six months ago, August 2021, which coincidentally is when I released the first issue of this newsletter and hosted my first astro workshop!

it is exciting for me to look back, and it is incredibly affirming for me to see how much positive feedback I have received from all of you. Thank you for engaging with me and recognizing the magic I bring to this world!

I know I ooze magic and beauty from my pores ( like many of u) and it can be a surprise to others that I enjoy having my magic affirmed, but it truly is a delight and has supported me sharing more and more of my medicine.

If you are curious about what I’ve been up to since my last newsletter in Libra szn (besides procrastinating sending out this newsletter) you can check out this video blog! I give an update about my life and in the last half of the video I lead a tapping for releasing fear and embracing change. It’s good stuff! Let me know if you check it out, it was so much work to create, I would love to know what you think.

I know that capitalism is based on transactional exchange, but I am moving away from that in my life. I encourage you to join my Ko-Fi (like a patreon, but less user fees!) if you enjoy my wisdom and want to support my presence in the world. I know so many people in my community value me and want to support me, and I’m proud of myself for creating pathways to receive that support!

Even if you aren’t trying to love on my like that, the video is free! I’ll probably take it down sometime in March because its so long. I realized during my time away in deep process that I desire to share more frequently and more intimately than I feel comfortable sharing in this newsletter. I won’t be sending anything out/posting anything until after I move to Durham in late Feb, but at some point I will transition this newsletter to be seasonal and find a rhythm of posting more regularly on Ko Fi. Right now you can join at $3/month, although I will likely close that option in March, so if you are interested in following my journey, now is the time!!

You can also offer a one time donation on Ko Fi for any amount. If you enjoy my work please consider throwing a couple bucks my way.

I’m also excited to share that I have open spots for new clients! Spots are limited + fill up fast! so if it feels like its for you, get on my calendar <3

Below are pieces of newsletter I wrote and never sent. I’m sharing with you because time is a circle. Maybe what was relevant then, won’t matter now, but your future self will take refuge.

I thought about it as I scrolled through delivery apps, trying to figure out what to eat as I procrastinated moving out of my 3rd floor Koreatown bedroom, as I hugged people with the knowledge that I would not see them for a long time.

I thought about it as I stood above the Rio Grande Gorge in Taos, New Mexico.

I thought about it as I forgot my adult self, sitting in my mother’s kitchen listening to her talk to her sister on the phone as I played solitaire on my phone and my life in LA became a distant memory.

I thought about it as Chani Nicholas horoscopes filled my inbox and I watched the moon dissolve, and then emerge again.

I thought about it as I came back to LA,

As I write this, the moon has slipped away again, and we find ourselves is the precious darkness of a new moon. In just a couple of hours a solar eclipse will occcur, the moon will block the sun from direct content with the earth and all of us

the rio grande gorge in Taos, New Mexico

this whole time I have been asking myself:

How do I understand this current of energy running through me?

How may I get more comfortable being uncomfortable?

what is the medicine we need to support our individual and collective transformation?

How can I support myself so I may stay present//grounded//centered in this time of unknown?

Celebrate this energy by:

getting a deep tissue massage
feeding your creative body by painting, coloring, reading poetry
drinking cinnamon rose tea with honey and lemon
lovingly massaging your kidneys with castor oil while envisioning green light surrounding these sacred organs
Breathing into your bones
making time to daydream and play out your wildest fantasies
find a postcard and draw a picture, no words. Send it to a friend
Leaning into generosity + curiousity
Taking a nap
soaking in mineral water (either by taking a spontaneous trip to some hot springs, or using some epsom salts)
eating beans and bone broth

Here are my Scorpio season reflections:

transformation involves remembering

Last month I wrote about letting go as I was letting go. Honestly, genuinely letting go from a place of trust and abundance. I was simultaneously resisting the process, resisting my move, filled with fear.

Sometimes when people engage with my work they notice the wisdom and the healing, and I think it is easy for people to project the image of the perfect healer onto me. While I am incredibly wise , I am also so very human.

People don’t always see my fear, my resistance, my ignorance, my pettiness, my humanness. We tend to believe that we can improve ourselves out of suffering. That if we change our thinking enough, if we finally start meditating, if we push ourselves hard enough we can reach a state where we will be free from pain and suffering, untouchable by problems.

An aside:: I don’t want to minimize the benefits of healthy eating, meditation, regular sleep and exercise. There are absolutely choices we can make to minimize harm and physical discomfort while in these bodies.

For a long time I was devoted to obsessive self improvement. I was in a never ending pursuit to heal myself, constantly discouraged and frustrated by the lack of progress and the futility of healing until one day I felt exhausted by my thoughts and the constant feeling of reaching and transforming. Of not feeling good enough, or like I had to wait to be my best self.

one day I was listening to a Pema Chodron audiobook and I listened to her describe human existence as fundamentally anxiety producing and I felt so much relief in my body. I began to understand that my feelings of terror where not an indicator of my failure as a human, as much as they are the reality of this existance. Slowly I began to shift my understanding and expectations of this life where so much is unknown and we all, regardless of our “goodness” , are vulnerable to uncomfortable and challenging expierences. I found myself having increased awareness of how avoidance and fear of discomfort were motivating my behavior, I also began to ask myself how I wanted to experience the world.

How might I find joy as I navigated the discomfort and anguish and tediousness of asserting my boundaries, breaking up with a friend, or filing my taxes?

It is anxiety inducing. I choose to accept myself exactly as I am, and to make space for my shadow, my humanness, my imperfection. This shift in my healing journey allowed me to find true inner peace and self acceptance.

in Scorpio season I have found myself present in the powerful and mysterious and paradoxically familiar unknown that happens after a big letting go.

I don’t regret letting go.

The above photo is from M Archive by the brilliant Alexis Pauline Gumbs.

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